Ready, Set, No!

(This post is inspired by a Facebook post I made that many people have inboxed me about. Hopefully it helps you wherever you may be in pursuit of your journey and self-fulfillment.)

It’s been a while since my last post (which is pretty normal), but that’s because I haven’t had anything interesting to share. August 21^st marks one year since the start of my service, so I guess I’ll pat myself on the back for that. However, I don’t really know how I feel about it. By now, I’m pretty sure you realize that I’ve had some wonderful moments, as well as many “I hate this!” moments.

            While ET-ing (Early Termination) is not on my mind, I feel as though Peace Corps has served its purpose in my life. It just seems like the good days won’t be any better and the bad days cannot get any worse. Really, I’m just ready to move to the next dimension and the next level of elevation. The world is such a fascinating place to me that if I find myself living a monotonous lifestyle, I get very bored. I’m ready to ACTUALLY do something revolutionary, ready to travel Africa, ready to lose myself and find it yet again, I’m just ready!- Ready for the next chapter of my life. Have you ever felt this way? I’m so anxious to be done with the Peace Corps. It’s not a bad thing, I just want new excitement and another 15 months just seems entirely too long.

            I am such a rational person (not to mention, I have like 14 hours of daily down time), that I always think things through. I realize that readiness and preparation are not synonymous. Despite the fact that my present circumstance lacks variety, amazement, and adventure, I want to believe that there is still something left. I consider myself more of a realist than an optimist. This means that I do not blindly hope for things that have a minute probability of manifestation. I rather look at the moment, bare and authentic for what it is, while trying to assess the potential of what it can be. It’s hard to explain, but hopefully you’re following me. Joining the Peace Corps is such a huge commitment and sadly requires a ton of patience. I just cannot accept the idea that I may have joined this organization to form a few “sustainable” groups whose behavioral change may never in fact be visually actualized. There’s a part of me that believes there is something bigger- something greater that must come from this. That “thing” has yet to be discovered. So, as ready as I am to move on, I know I’m not prepared. Whatever that fundamental “thing” is that awaits revealing itself, I understand that it is pivotal to my next venture. In my opinion, everything has a purpose and forms some kind of interconnectivity.

            Sometimes my blog posts serve as reminders to myself. I wrote this not only for self-encouragement, but to encourage you as well (if and/or when it’s applicable)! No matter what chapter, season, moment, case… you may be experiencing, know that it is all for your good! You may feel this burning fire telling you that you’re ready to close that door and move on, but wait! Readiness is not a pre-requisite for preparedness. Evaluate your situation and decide if there is even a slight chance that you have not received everything that you need to sustain and equip you in your next level of authority and your subsequent dimension of purpose and greatness. Oftentimes we’re accustomed to driving over the speed limit that we don’t know when it’s time to slow down and switch gears to park. After all, each moment holds something sacred and special towards our destiny, why not enjoy it! So, let us both be encouraged that although we may be ready to move on and do something different in this world, let’s embrace the present and have hope for the future that our prepping ground still holds new adventures, challenges, lessons, and experiences for us. <3 <3 <3