(This post is inspired by a Facebook post I made that many
people have inboxed me about. Hopefully it helps you wherever you may be in
pursuit of your journey and self-fulfillment.)
It’s been a while since my last post (which is pretty
normal), but that’s because I haven’t had anything interesting to share. August
21st marks one year since the start of my service, so I guess I’ll
pat myself on the back for that. However, I don’t really know how I feel about
it. By now, I’m pretty sure you realize that I’ve had some wonderful moments,
as well as many “I hate this!” moments.
While
ET-ing (Early Termination) is not on my mind, I feel as though Peace Corps has
served its purpose in my life. It just seems like the good days won’t be any
better and the bad days cannot get any worse. Really, I’m just ready to move to
the next dimension and the next level of elevation. The world is such a fascinating
place to me that if I find myself living a monotonous lifestyle, I get very
bored. I’m ready to ACTUALLY do something revolutionary, ready to travel
Africa, ready to lose myself and find it yet again, I’m just ready!- Ready for
the next chapter of my life. Have you ever felt this way? I’m so anxious to be
done with the Peace Corps. It’s not a bad thing, I just want new excitement and
another 15 months just seems entirely too long.
I am such a
rational person (not to mention, I have like 14 hours of daily down time), that
I always think things through. I realize that readiness and preparation are not
synonymous. Despite the fact that my present circumstance lacks variety,
amazement, and adventure, I want to believe that there is still something left.
I consider myself more of a realist than an optimist. This means that I do not
blindly hope for things that have a minute probability of manifestation. I
rather look at the moment, bare and authentic for what it is, while trying to
assess the potential of what it can be. It’s hard to explain, but hopefully you’re
following me. Joining the Peace Corps is such a huge commitment and sadly
requires a ton of patience. I just cannot accept the idea that I may have
joined this organization to form a few “sustainable” groups whose behavioral
change may never in fact be visually actualized. There’s a part of me that
believes there is something bigger- something greater that must come from this.
That “thing” has yet to be discovered. So, as ready as I am to move on, I know
I’m not prepared. Whatever that fundamental “thing” is that awaits revealing
itself, I understand that it is pivotal to my next venture. In my opinion,
everything has a purpose and forms some kind of interconnectivity.
Sometimes
my blog posts serve as reminders to myself. I wrote this not only for
self-encouragement, but to encourage you as well (if and/or when it’s
applicable)! No matter what chapter, season, moment, case… you may be
experiencing, know that it is all for your good! You may feel this burning fire
telling you that you’re ready to close that door and move on, but wait!
Readiness is not a pre-requisite for preparedness. Evaluate your situation and
decide if there is even a slight chance that you have not received everything
that you need to sustain and equip you in your next level of authority and your
subsequent dimension of purpose and greatness. Oftentimes we’re accustomed to
driving over the speed limit that we don’t know when it’s time to slow down and
switch gears to park. After all, each moment holds something sacred and special
towards our destiny, why not enjoy it! So, let us both be encouraged that
although we may be ready to move on and do something different in this world,
let’s embrace the present and have hope for the future that our prepping ground
still holds new adventures, challenges, lessons, and experiences for us. <3
<3 <3
